Why I Blog

The Purpose of this Blog:

To create a place for myself to be REAL: to show others (and myself) that real life is both lovely and messy, beautiful and ugly, ordinary and unique, boring and exciting.

A place to be creative, to be silly, to be serious, to be thoughtful, to be theological, to be an encouragement and to be ME. 

I have forever wanted to be a wife and a mommy, yet now that the dream has come true, I find myself in a constant battle to fight off "I'm-doing-a-horrible-job-and-failing-at-everything-I-try" syndrome, accompanied but "all-the-other-mom's-have-thier-lives-together!"syndrome. And then I go on blogs and I'm like "See? I was right! This lady sews all her kids clothes! And this lady cooks for herself, her MIL, her sick neighbor AND goes to work! And this lady makes all the household income just by selling stuff in her Esty shop!" and the more of a failure I feel like I am.

Now I know in my HEART that all these ladies don't have it all together, but my HEAD can't seem to figure that out. So still I sit sulking, in my PJ's, without make-up on, in the middle of the day, in the midst of my mess of a living room, and believe they do.

I believe with all my heart that the Lord created women to be wives and mothers (I wrote my Senior Seminar on that topic for crying out loud); that His grace is sufficient for all things and made perfect in weakness (2 Cor. 12:9); that His plans for me are greater than my own (Jer. 29:11); and that I am doing the most important work in the world raising my son; and blah blah blah...but CHOOSING to live those truths out in my daily life? SO FREAKING HARD.

And so I have decided to write this blog, as a place for me to remind myself how lovely my life really is, and as a place to showcase my REAL life (good, bad, ugly) to the world. I hope along the way I can encourage others with my real-ness, and cause them to find the lovely parts of their own lives: in the ordinary daily grind, and in the extraordinary daily miracles.

I take myself too seriously, I take life too seriously, and I take my perceived views of other's perfect realities too seriously. This blog is an attempt to change that. Follow along if you dare.